For those who might have read my last post and felt offended, I am sorry.

I do not think the sorority is full of bad people who are out to get me. Never have I thought that.

I apologize if I hurt your feelings. I never intended to. I do not want people upset because of something I said.

I use this tumblr as a blog, and I write what I feel. To my understanding only a few people are on tumblr and I never expected it to be passed around and shown off. It’s a way to vent.

I wrote that post as a possibility, not a definite plan of action against me. It worries to me to be around girls or even look at the house, because some people have been rude and seem not to consider me a sister anymore or worth their time.

Again, that’s not everyone.. I am not accusing the sorority as being evil. You’re not.

I’m just worried, I have no idea what to do or who to believe anymore, or who I can trust and turn to in a time of need.

I love you all.

Seriously.

I may not wear the letters anymore, but I consider every single one of you my sister and I would do anything for you. Even those who refuse me or my help, I still love you.

I am sorry. Truly, I hate it when people are sad, hurt, or disappointed. Because we’ve all been there.

I’m paranoid about CC retreat on Sunday. I’m waiting for everyone to shun me, or worse, treat me like a stray cat, “awww, you’re a cute kitty aren’t you! yes I’ll pet you! okay, now leave, you don’t belong here.”

Welp. On the other hand, I didn’t really belong did I?

I told Liz she has to hold my hand the whole time or I might cry. Ha, well, I’m sure I’ll cry awkwardly when some one snickers in my general direction.

Yay pepto bismal.

And Robyn.

Tumblr is dark dark place indeed.

Why bother coming back. Ignore me all weekend. Refuse to help with the tree. Refuse to touch me. How am I even important?